Anxiety makes it really hard to think positively and believe that things will be okay. Everything feels overwhelming. There seems to be so much going on and yet you just can’t bring yourself to do anything. You wake up with horrible uneasiness that makes getting out of bed one of the hardest things in the world. For the longest time, this anxious and uneasy feeling would cause me to just lay in bed, unable to move. I tried setting multiple alarms, asked people text me, and told myself to get out of bed but nothing worked. I would be wide awake when the alarm went off but then the rush of fear and dread would come and I would be too paralyzed with pain to move.
Eventually, I realized that if I wanted to enjoy my life and face my fears, I needed to find a way to wake up looking forward to the day ahead. It’s never an instant switch where everything’s suddenly okay; it takes time, it takes patience, and it takes will power. I asked myself, am I going to give up or am I going to be strong and take charge of my life? For years, I had told myself that I wasn't good enough and didn't deserve to feel happy. This attitude not only brings me down but it brings other people around me down. When I would finally drag myself out of bed and begin my day, people could see that I wasn’t happy. Sometimes we need extra motivation to get us up and going.
Finding What Worked
After much trial and error, I found something that works for me. I used the things that I find pleasure in to start my day. I love EDM and dancing so when the alarm goes off I now immediately put on a Spotify playlist. The music helps me want to get up and start dancing around my apartment. I’m also a foodie so on particularly tough mornings I think about something good I’m going to eat today. I’m interested in travelling so I sometimes think about the trips that I want to do this year and how relaxing and fun they will be. Everyone has their own interests that motivate them. Aside from doing things personalized to you, there are also many activities that everyone going through anxiety can use to get up.
Ultimately, the negativity and hopelessness is what kept me stuck in bed and this is what needed to change. What really helps is thinking about positive affirmations and the small things I’m grateful for. After doing this every day, I have started to feel better about the day ahead and now wake up excited to jump out of bed and get my day started.