Overcoming My Fear Of Therapy

We believe in the power of sharing stories. Sometimes hearing another person's experience can help motivate you to take action. This story was shared with us and we really thought it would be valuable to share with you. Going to therapy the first time can seem scary, but as you will see it is very much worth it.

Fighting My Fear Of Therapy

Going to therapy for the first time was undoubtedly the most difficult thing I have ever had to do. I had barely slept and no appetite the day before my first appointment. Even the reassurance from my closest friend, who stayed in the waiting room the entire time, was not enough to calm my nerves. I thought that making the appointment was difficult, but it was nothing compared to actually going. Having to sit down and recount all of my “problems” to a complete and utter stranger was petrifying. Nevertheless, I knew that going to therapy was an integral part of finally obtaining a healthy state of mind.

In September 2016, I walked the 800 metres to the Student Wellness Centre at my university and waited for my name to be called out by a counsellor. While it’s only been a short 4 months since I began therapy, it has been extremely comforting and useful. Originally, I began seeing a counsellor to heal from an abusive relationship I was unable to overcome on my own. Through my bi-weekly sessions with my counsellor, I have been able to make incredible progress in healing and moving forward from my past. She has been a voice of comfort, reason, and encouragement through difficult moments and empowering milestones for me. Although it did take some time for me to begin truly trusting my counsellor, I have now realized that she will never judge me and is only there to support me.

As I found my counsellor’s support in one important aspect of my life helpful, I decided to share with her some of my other mental health concerns. Opening up to her about these issues was difficult; I feared that she might turn me to someone else who would focus on these issues more. Instead, she was very happy I had shared my concerns with her. She has now begun supporting me in other aspects of my mental health.

Through my sessions with her and with the tools she has given me, I have been able to significantly improve my mental wellbeing. I have gained a better, more holistic understanding of my strengths and weaknesses, enabling me to thrive in areas of my life that I did not think were possible. I still have much to learn and several areas to improve. But, I would have never made it this far if I had not sought out the help of a professional.

My first therapy session was undoubtedly the most difficult thing I have ever had to do in my entire life. But seeking support through therapy is undoubtedly the most rewarding and empowering thing I have ever done. You have the power to change your feelings, thoughts, and behaviours more than you know. Some of us need a bit more help in seeing that, and you know what I’ve realized? That’s completely okay.